Your Weight Does NOT Equate To Your Worth.
Since you asked your brain this question, it will answer in a full-out battering of your past actions, and probably question your worth as a human-being.
Some of the answers might go a little bit like this. It is because you ate too much yesterday, you didn’t go for that second walk, you drank a glass of wine, you had a cookie, or you had a big binge yesterday.
OR your brain thinks, you ate so well yesterday you did everything right, but the scale hasn’t budged. You think your body just can’t lose the weight, you can’t do this, your no good, you might as well just eat that piece of cake you have had your eye on…..actually might as well eat the whole cake, it doesn’t matter anyway.
Your mind goes into a spiral of self-destructive thoughts and it probably will stay with you all day. It is like this cloud that is constantly over your head. You can’t get your mind off of this negative spin cycle.
Does this sound like you? It certainly sounds like me. I still have this experience now and again.
About a year ago I stepped on the scale at my doctor’s office. But because I knew how my brain worked I wanted to not expose myself to that number–especially in the doctor’s office. So I told the nurse before hand that I have a history of eating disorders and I would rather not see the number on the scale. I had my back to the number and turned around to be measured for my height, that number was still there.
Thoughts started spinning around in my head. Thoughts like, this intuitive eating thing isn’t working, what the heck am I doing. I have never seen a number that big before, my pants are feeling a little tight, etc.
In hindsight I can see that my thoughts stemmed from the fear of not being worthy, because if I can’t even love myself at this weight, how could anyone ever love me?
Well the truth is that even at my heaviest, people still loved me, they actually commented on how beautiful I looked. But it didn’t matter because I couldn’t love me. I couldn’t get out of my negative spin cycle of self-abusive thoughts.
Now, I still have these thoughts here and there but I have been able to train myself to sit back and see these thoughts for exactly what they are, just thoughts. I am not my thoughts, I have control over my thoughts, I know that if I want to I can change my thoughts to change the way I feel.
I want to teach you the same. Sign up for my free mini session and I will walk you through my process and give you some tips on how to change your thinking.
Much love and grace,